Why yes, yes I do.

I wonder: “What do I want to do for the rest of my life?”

I go to work, and I really love my work - I enjoy it now more than ever. With John (the newest developer for our team) helping me program the WOW site, it has also become slightly easier.

However, when I go to work, I feel unintelligent. Not so much in the fact like “Oh my god, I’m a dumbass!” sort of feeling, but…okay -

Most of the time when I am working on something that to me seems incredibly difficult, I look over and see John has completed three sub-pages for the site in JavaScript in the time I have programmed a “Submit” button for a form.

I admit, I’m a slow programmer.

Is programming the thing for me? Well, I’m fairly certain it is, but when I look at all of my coworkers doing all of these advanced things in databases, queries and PHP, I say “I can’t do that”. And those “things” I see I feel I should already know - but I don’t, yet.

I guess that is what makes me full unintelligent.

I mean my friends who are in the computer field are always saying, “Sheesh you are already doing queries and learning PHP at your Internship?! You know more about this than I do!” But then I get to work, and I don’t really feel the same way anymore, you know?

I think if I could program all of the time, that would make it a lot better. Hopefully buying web space (www.jkimberlin.com) will help in that process. I will be able to test out things before actually going to work, maybe helping me to speed up the learning process.

All I am saying is - if work was a totem pole of knowledge, I’d definitely be at the bottom.

Ahhh the sweet, sweet smell of revenge.

So last night I went to sleep at 2:00AM - woke up at 3AM because the nasty floor people were back from drinking and decided to be loud at that time.

Then I woke up at 6AM because it was storming so bad I actually had to put a cup under my ‘drippy spot’ in my room. I didn’t go back to sleep because such a TON of water was coming into my room - the cup was almost full by 7:30AM!

Ah, the joy of having 5 hours of sleep. Not really.

So instead I got up, went pee, and then watched ‘The Lake House’ and just generally laid around in bed until about 11:30AM, then I got up, took a shower, and Allison called me.

Allison, Ray and I went to Wal-Mart and Panera Bread for lunch, and by the time I got back, it was 3:30PM.

I decided to do laundry then. I go downstairs, only to realize that everyone and their mother was doing laundry at that time, so I angrily come back upstairs.

I hate it when my schedule is thrown off. I mean, I planned on doing laundry and while doing laundry I planned on getting most of my reading done. Instead, when I came back up I watched ‘Office Space’ with Kevin with which we both laughed our asses off, and then afterwards I just felt really tired so I came back to my room.

Now it is 7:30PM and although I have not eaten dinner and I’m kind of hungry, I probably won’t because once again, I feel like my schedule is completely messed up.

So I have been sitting here for the last half hour, ticked off in general at my floor for making me feel so tired.

For my ‘revenge’ I blasted music for the whole floor to hear. :-)

What was the best part was one of the girls that were EXTREMELY loud on my floor last night came into my room about 10 minutes ago.

(Enter girl that looks like she is suffering from a massive hangover)

Girl: “Excuse me!” (Yelling over music)

Me: (Pretending I can’t hear a damn thing, cuffing my ear in her direction)

Girl: “Oh very funny…”

Me: (Pauses music) “Can I help you?”

Girl: “Yeah, can you, like, keep it down?! I’m trying to sleep!!” (Like, omigod!!)

Me: (Mock Surprise) “Oh, and why is that?” (Puts finger to mouth, pretending to think hard)

Girl: “Like, just turn it down a bit!” (Not even a ‘please’??)

Me: “Oh wait, I think YOU were the one being extremely drunk at 3 in the morning while I was trying to sleep, weren’t you?” (I’m feeling very sarcastic today)

Girl: (Not saying anything, stands in my room with arms crossed - She obviously knows she was extremely loud last night)

We both stare at each other for a moment…

…I win.

Girl: “Just keep it down a bit!!” (Exits in a huff)

Me: “Yeah, sure, just like you did for me!”

Anndddd I continue playing music for another 15 minutes, slightly LOUDER than I had before - She never came back for a second visit.

I feel a lot better now. ;-)

Time for laundry!